no puedo creerlo. (I cannot believe it)
I am sick.
I had tons of plans for my last days in Spain and now all of them have been cancelled. I cannot leave the couch. I cannot eat. I cannot drink. I cannot talk. Its horrible. (trust me, i cant just not eat becuase it hurts, but my stomach is also a little off.. i wont go into details.)
But, on the bright side i know that the people here care about me. I know for sure that even at my worst these people who i call my family and friends are still there for me. My mom brought me to the doctor, she was there to make sure i was alright after they gave me a shot in my butt (yes, in my butt...i guess they prefer that you cant sit, over the fact that you cant move your arm...?) My host dad was constentally checking on me making sure i didnt need anything, or if i did, he would help me get it. The friends of my host parents, and my uncles and aunts were in the house today, and often came in to keep me company, talk to me, and ensure that i will be better before I have to leave on thursday.
And. I left my phone upstairs the whole day along side my ipod and didnt use the internet, so when i finally looked at everything i had 23 missed calls from my friends asking if i had died, and the ones who knew i was sick, were telling me to get better. I haad 31 facebook notifications and 15 tuenti notifications. Most messages from friends telling me to get better quick so i can leave the house and hang out with them. I love my friends :( I dont want to leave yet :(
Tomorrow I plan on packing (cause I have yet to even begin thinking about that..okay..until now..) and my friends are coming over in the night to watch a movie (something less active, because i cant be all crazy, for fear of getting sick again). then wednesday I hope to be able to do at least SOMETHING with my friends before i go, but i dont even know what. my host mom doesnt want me going out too much and tiring myself out. :( well I will see.
I hope I get better before I have to return home. Im sure my flight will be miserable if im still sick. Are you even allowed to go on a plane sick? hmm...
see you all soon.
Monday, June 25, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
You don’t take a photograph, you make it. - Ansel Adams
Hey. So. I just took this picture yesterday, and put it all together today and it came out wonderful.
This is in the port in malaga. I took it with my photography class during a lesson on Panoramic photography.
To check out more pictures I took at el Torcal the other day, and other pictures I have taken visit: My Photography Page
This is in the port in malaga. I took it with my photography class during a lesson on Panoramic photography.
To check out more pictures I took at el Torcal the other day, and other pictures I have taken visit: My Photography Page
Friday, June 15, 2012
“Don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened.”
Today was my last official day of school, more or less. I mean I still technicaly have classes this coming week, but they are tests and retakes that I do not need to take, so therefore, I do not have to go. I have to go on tuesday morning to take a dancing test for PE, dancing the salsa with my friend, but that hardly counts.
I looked back to my blog from September after my first day of school (here is my post from my first day of school.), and this is what I wrote, "I think that my first day of school here in Spain has easily been the most difficult and worst day of my life so far."
Even though that day was absolutly terrible, not knowing anyone, not knowing anything, not even being able to communicate effectively, I look back and I learned so much. I look back and I see those kids that helped me that first day, who are now my good friends. The kids who once treated me as the new froreigner, have now accepted me as one of their own, and all who tell me they do not want me to leave.
I have a million offers to stay in peoples houses, hide in peoples closets, etc. so I won´t have to leave, as if the issue was a place to stay. I do not want to leave yet, either. At all. Not even a part of me wants to go home. But even that isnt quite it. Because it isnt really home that I dont want to go to, its here that i dont want to leave. I want them to form together, and be one. Or maybe...just maybe stay a little longer. But I am not ready to leave in the least bit. I have 12 days. And now that school is out, that means ill be out everyday all day.
The last couple weeks I have been going out a ton. To the beach etc. and to that crew regatta for my friend. To save time uploading, you can check out my pictures on my facebook photography page: http://www.facebook.com/AllysonMcCarthyPhotography
Miss everyone! Not sure how many posts I will do from now until I go, becuase today is literally my last day where i have free time and not being smuggled around by all my friends. (I have a genuine fear of being kidnapped by my friends the night before I leave for madrid, they are going to kidnap me so i dont leave...i know they are plotting...)
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
No one who achieves success does so without the help of others. The wise and confident acknowledge this help with gratitude. -- Alfred North Whitehead
Today I decided to give my host family my thank you gift. I saw that everyone, my mom, my dad, pablo, maria, and theresa were all eating dinner together tonight, and I decided to seize the chance to thank them. I had planned in my head to give them this huge speech about how grateful I am, and how amazing they are, and how i truly could not have had as an amazing year this past year without them.
They have done so much for me and I will be forever grateful. I know that they care about me as a part of the family, one of their own. I know that they would do anything for me if need be. I have come to trust in the Romeros, and they have become a part of me that I will never let go. I know I will return and honestly, I am in denial about leaving in the first place. ( i have had absent minded plots made up in my head about the many different ways i could "accidently miss the bus" to madrid, so then id have to stay longer).
But anyway, so i had this huge speech all planned out in my head. I ran upstairs to get the painting I had bought back before i even came, and i came back downstairs, looked at all of them, said "This is for you guys to say thanks, becuase you have been an amazing host family and.." and I had to stop mid sentence, throw the painting into my host dads hands and sit before I broke into tears. I cant believe i only have 15 days left. I cannot believe it.
I am also going to be baking cookies this weekend with mariely and anca to give to some teachers and other important people in my life who have made my year in spain so much easier and enjoyable. I am dreading saying goodbye to them...
Also, I have bought a spanish flag for all my friends at school to sign, and I had a few of my friends sign it today. I took the flag out to put it in my other bag and I read some of their messages, and again, i started crying. I still have 2 weeks til i actually leave and im already losing it. I dont even want to know what actually leaving is like....
I would also like to send a quick thank you to all those people out there that supported me before I came, be it financially or morally. I really appreciate all that everyone has done for me, and I could not have made this year so special by myself. I am really grateful for everything that I have. I look back on my short 17 years of life, and I cant even believe the luck and fortune I have. I have supporting friends and family (in both America and Spain) and a life I could never have dreamed about. I cannot wait to see what the future has waiting for me.
Thank You.
They have done so much for me and I will be forever grateful. I know that they care about me as a part of the family, one of their own. I know that they would do anything for me if need be. I have come to trust in the Romeros, and they have become a part of me that I will never let go. I know I will return and honestly, I am in denial about leaving in the first place. ( i have had absent minded plots made up in my head about the many different ways i could "accidently miss the bus" to madrid, so then id have to stay longer).
But anyway, so i had this huge speech all planned out in my head. I ran upstairs to get the painting I had bought back before i even came, and i came back downstairs, looked at all of them, said "This is for you guys to say thanks, becuase you have been an amazing host family and.." and I had to stop mid sentence, throw the painting into my host dads hands and sit before I broke into tears. I cant believe i only have 15 days left. I cannot believe it.
I am also going to be baking cookies this weekend with mariely and anca to give to some teachers and other important people in my life who have made my year in spain so much easier and enjoyable. I am dreading saying goodbye to them...
Also, I have bought a spanish flag for all my friends at school to sign, and I had a few of my friends sign it today. I took the flag out to put it in my other bag and I read some of their messages, and again, i started crying. I still have 2 weeks til i actually leave and im already losing it. I dont even want to know what actually leaving is like....
I would also like to send a quick thank you to all those people out there that supported me before I came, be it financially or morally. I really appreciate all that everyone has done for me, and I could not have made this year so special by myself. I am really grateful for everything that I have. I look back on my short 17 years of life, and I cant even believe the luck and fortune I have. I have supporting friends and family (in both America and Spain) and a life I could never have dreamed about. I cannot wait to see what the future has waiting for me.
Thank You.
Thursday, June 7, 2012
All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them. Walt Disney
I don´t remember the exact moment I decided I wanted to study abroad. For a lot of my life I have been passionate about traveling. I went to visit my cousins in Indiana, I went to visit my friend in Michigan, I went to camp in Georgia, and I went to Peru. I sought out oppurtunities to travel. I did not wait for my parents to want to travel somewhere, becuase he knows when that may be. I took my dream into my own hands and began.
I decided to come to Spain for the upmost reason of learning Spanish. And that I have accomplished. I have worked all year with the assitance of my host family, my friends, and my teachers. I am often told, "wow, your spanish is really good" by most people I meet, and you cannot even imagine the pride I feel.
I also decided to come to Spain as opposed to south america is so that the possibilty of travel to other countries within my year would be a higher possibility. Although I did not make it to many other countries, I am satisfied with my trip to Switzerland. I have accepted the fact that AFS is not a program for "travel" but a program for education. They send you to a country for you to spend the year in that country and learn about the culture of that country, not every country surrounding it.
The last reason I decided to study abroad was to meet new people, learn about new cultures, and to do something different with my life. I know that the best way to learn is to learn by experience. As I wrote in my last post, I have grown so much and the world through my eyes has now changed. As one of my AFS leaders told me, I now have concern for more than just my own country. My best friends here in spain have family, and are from France and Romania. I have a boy in my group from Turkey, and a girl from Slovakia. I have other friends here with family in Argentina. When I watch the news and I hear about a natural disaster, or violence somewhere in the world, it means a lot more to me becuase I may have friends there.
When I told people I was going to Spain for a year the too most common reactions were that they either didnt believe me, or they simply asked "why?". Studying abroud in high school in America is not that common. In my opinion, the majority of people in America have this idea that everyone needs to go to school all 12 years, get good grades, then to college, then graduate and get a job. If you dont follow this basic outline, or step out of the saftey zone and do something different, people are convinced it wont work. Or they think it will mess everything up. When I told people I am going abroad a lot of people were worried I was making a mistake. A lot of people were worried that this would mess up my high school transcript, or that colleges won´t like me. One think that i have learned after all this, is the best way to be the best you can be is to go outside your comfort zone.
"A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion."
Chinese Proverb
I decided to come to Spain for the upmost reason of learning Spanish. And that I have accomplished. I have worked all year with the assitance of my host family, my friends, and my teachers. I am often told, "wow, your spanish is really good" by most people I meet, and you cannot even imagine the pride I feel.
I also decided to come to Spain as opposed to south america is so that the possibilty of travel to other countries within my year would be a higher possibility. Although I did not make it to many other countries, I am satisfied with my trip to Switzerland. I have accepted the fact that AFS is not a program for "travel" but a program for education. They send you to a country for you to spend the year in that country and learn about the culture of that country, not every country surrounding it.
The last reason I decided to study abroad was to meet new people, learn about new cultures, and to do something different with my life. I know that the best way to learn is to learn by experience. As I wrote in my last post, I have grown so much and the world through my eyes has now changed. As one of my AFS leaders told me, I now have concern for more than just my own country. My best friends here in spain have family, and are from France and Romania. I have a boy in my group from Turkey, and a girl from Slovakia. I have other friends here with family in Argentina. When I watch the news and I hear about a natural disaster, or violence somewhere in the world, it means a lot more to me becuase I may have friends there.
When I told people I was going to Spain for a year the too most common reactions were that they either didnt believe me, or they simply asked "why?". Studying abroud in high school in America is not that common. In my opinion, the majority of people in America have this idea that everyone needs to go to school all 12 years, get good grades, then to college, then graduate and get a job. If you dont follow this basic outline, or step out of the saftey zone and do something different, people are convinced it wont work. Or they think it will mess everything up. When I told people I am going abroad a lot of people were worried I was making a mistake. A lot of people were worried that this would mess up my high school transcript, or that colleges won´t like me. One think that i have learned after all this, is the best way to be the best you can be is to go outside your comfort zone.
"A wise man makes his own decisions, an ignorant man follows public opinion."
Chinese Proverb
Coming to Spain has been one of the best desicions I have ever made in my whole life so far. I have made friends for a lifetime, and learned more than I could have ever imagined. Thank you to all those who helped me reach my goal. The first steps of a young dream :)
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